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December 25th At 7:01PM] |
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i got a new lj.
sammi__murdered
add it porfavor ♥
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[Sunday
December 25th At 12:25PM] |
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the early november. |
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Merry Christmas everyone :] !
i got pretty much everything i wanted.
i got my ipod :] my brother got me a band shirt (the used)
i got a bunch of other shirts, lepord print fuzzy blanky :]
make up, perfume, new bras and panties, umm, 2 new purses,
2 new jackets, hello kitty beanie, hello kitty board to
write on and hang on my wall, a new necklace
with an "S" charm, and i think thats about it.
how was everyone else's christmas? i hope good. peace <3
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[Friday
December 23rd At 9:06PM] |
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so i pretty much cant WAIT until new years eve :] !!!!
P A N i C 01x: i have 34$ right now. plus 25 from this lady who always gives me money for xmas.
P A N i C 01x: so yessss!
P A N i C 01x: im ready for new years
BneathTheStars02: hahaha nicce
BneathTheStars02: i have $5
P A N i C 01x: hahaha
BneathTheStars02: yayy
P A N i C 01x: u fgt
P A N i C 01x: u better get saving!
P A N i C 01x: but u can buy a bar with that
P A N i C 01x: or a nik bag of weed
P A N i C 01x: awesome!
BneathTheStars02: lol
BneathTheStars02: SWEEEET
hahaha. shes an idiot. anna get more money. dont leave me hanging. PLZ.
♥bff
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[Friday
December 23rd At 2:24PM] |
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soooo i got out of the house today :]
it was soooo nice. my brother came and got me.
and we went to danatos. and got 1 dolla pizza. mmmm.
and free drinks. and free breadsticks. and megan was there.
and we ate with her. and i saw stephine dobbs and sean hobbs.
cuz they work there, and i havent seen them in forever. and yaaa.
so we ate there. and talked to all them for a while. it was good.
and then jimbo came in. and i havent seen him in forever eaither.
so that was fun. and thennnnn, we went to target. i saw
sean, sam G and john G. after that, went to the gas station.
and now im home. and tomorrow is christmas eve. which is pretty crazy.
and i think tomorrow im finally going to see harry potter.
the new one. with mommy and her friend michelle. fun.
ummm, okay so bye ♥
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[Thursday
December 22nd At 7:09PM] |
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aiden. |
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so im still grounded.
i get my phone back satarday tho. but who cares.
i need to get out of this house. iv been
looking threw alot of old pictures. it made me sad.
i miss alot of people i used to be friends with.
like, good friends with. im still friends with most
of them, but its not the same. which is kinda sad.
iv met so many new people though, and im so happy about that.
becuase their all such a big part of my life now.
i had this friend. who meant just about everything to me.
every piece of my heart, went to him.
he owned it for the longest time.
he was my best friend for a while.
well at least thats what i viewed him as.
idk if he felt the same about me, but we were pretty damn close.
we made promises we couldnt keep. and broke them.
and thats why today, were nothing. we talk sometimes. but most
of the time its "hi" and "wuts up" and "nothing" and then thats
the end of our conversation. i really hate it. and i wish
him and i were still as close as we were befor.
and i wish we didnt fuck things up. and even today,
i still think about him 24-7. and i still think about
everytime we hung out, and i think about
our old conversations, and just everything him and i did in the past.
i felt like for a while he was the only boy
id ever really truthfully like and want to be with.
but, i dont really think that anymore.
moving on from him is one of the hardest things
iv had to do. expeciouly since were not even friends :[
& who knows what the future will bring. but ya.
i still love him. and want him to know that.
and even if were not as close anymore,
still know you can come to me if you ever need to.
and i wish and hope i can do the same. you still
mean just about everything to me. and youll
always be my friend no matter how far we drift
from eachother. i promise ♥.
gklfjjghlgfhgfl
anyways, i really want to hang out
with keli and dani right now :[.
and everyone at cuhs, and everyone who goes there.
(cuh. tyler. courtney. matt. christian. daniel.
and everyone else who is there sometimes when im there)
and everyone at the apartment (anders)
and my best friend anna. gjhfdgjg :\ ♥
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[Thursday
December 22nd At 2:55PM] |
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the used. |
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so im really not looking
forward to watching the OC by myself tonight :[
the'e end.
keli says their both repeats tonight.
god dammit. o well
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[Wednesday
December 21st At 6:59PM] |
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EDIT
i feel like im letting people down.
&& i feel like some people hate me.
becuase of some things i do.
or some things others do :[ i dont like it. im sorry.
so this is like my 487435 entry today.
but im bored. and ya. daniel comes home tomorrow.
and im sad, cuz i think ill still be grounded tomorrow :[
so that means, i cant see him. which sucks. jlfghfdjkl ew.
so pretty much iv been sitting in my room alllllll day.
i took a nap, and listented to about 8 different cd's.
i also cleaned my room. then my brother came over for dinner.
i hadent eaten anything all day, and i was hungry, but
i didnt want to eat. but my mom and brother made me. gay.
so i ate, and went back to my room. my mom came in
and gave me a big hug. i guess shes sucking up
becuase i didnt say one word to her at dinner
and when she would speak to me, i didnt respond.
and i kept my head down the whole time.
& i dont feel bad. i didnt do anything wrong. whaaaatever.
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[Wednesday
December 21st At 2:02PM] |
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so i am grounded.
at least for today and tomorrow.
and hopefully thats all.
gfijfikdjhgfdhjbgfkhjgf
jhkhl;lghjgh
jhklkj;ghklkghkjlhgk;'ghjjghkjghklj
hjohl;kjl;ghljghjk'ghk
ghkljh;'jlghkj;'hgk;'lhj
kjgh;'k;'ghjlk'jl
jhkhj
l;kjlkl;jkl;kl;'k
now i go rot in my room
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[Wednesday
December 21st At 12:04PM] |
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across five aprils. |
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these are cuhs.
their from satarday.
i think i was a little fucked up :\
^^ i love her :]
and i talked to courtney like 10 mins ago.
i love her too. and i apoligized. and feel better now
knowing that shes not as mad or upset as she was befor.
she doesnt deserve being upset or mad. shes amazing ♥
and um, im still mad at my mom but im going
to write her a note today and apoligize. for being a bad kid i guess?
fjdgvhfjdgfkd :\ kbye♥
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[Tuesday
December 20th At 11:37PM] |
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so i hate my mom.
she was i guess going through my shit
when i wasnt home, and found my aderall pill that
was in a pill bottle. she freaked out.
i get home. and she bitches.
i guess she think im a drugie now. cuz of one pill that
is for ADD kids. its not like it was ecstasy or something.
and then while she was bitching,
i walked outside. & got half way down the road
and she calls and was like come back inside right now.
then, i go inside, she asked for my phone. i threw it at her.
and she didnt catch it. so it dropped on the floor.
it didnt break, but now she has it. so now i have
no phone for who knows how long. shes stupid. seriously.
i want to move out. like Woaaah.
k well im pissed now. and really tierd. and welllll, ya fuck you
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[Tuesday
December 20th At 3:37PM] |
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umm last nights a blur.
people told me things that happend this morning.
and it sounded fun :] so i guess i had a good night.
i love everyone i hung out with last night ♥
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[Sunday
December 18th At 1:17PM] |
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after my mom stupid little bullshit thing she wsanted to go too.
i met up with keli and tim and phil and we had nothing to do.
so we went to alyssas. and hung out there for am while.
i was with alyssa, keli, phil, tim, keith, chase J, and chris J.
and then renee came for a little bit. god i love her!!
i went home by like 11. snuck out. chrisitan came and got me.
we went to his house. so he can sneek out. and then we went to cuhs.
thennnn we all decdied to go to anders.
a bunch of girls crying that were there.
i dont really know why? but i felt bad.
everyone says it was cuz deyos bars.
buttttt i took one anyway. lol and they were fine, thenn,
i really dont know what went on after that
im not quit sure how i got home.
but i did. and my mom woke up at 12.
wtf i slept till 12? ew. jkghfgfdgj
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[Friday
December 16th At 11:07PM] |
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a cutthroat kiss. |
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EDIT: dani took pictures.
and i stole them from her. mwahaha.
( :five: )
sooo. pretty much im done with all boys.
ALL OF THEM. cept christian. i can deal with him 100%.
but ya. forreal. tonight, was okay until we met up with
people and picked ppl up. i was wierded out.
and i was pissed cause some people are just ridiculous.
and it kinda makes me sick. and im tierd of getting
treated like shit for no reason. i be nice,
and i get shot down. whiiiccchhh, is fine. so fuck you & you.
come january 1st, EVERYTHINGGGG is going to change.
the way i look at people, the way i view things,
the way i treat people, the friends i choose,
the people i like, just everything.
im acually excited to see what the new year brings.
i know its going to be hard to do,
and some people are going to be hard to get over,
but since its what THEY want, then im not going to agrue.
and come crawling back. becuase thats gotten me where? no where.
ill be getting a new journal too. and if people want to bitch
about what i write, forreal, fuck off. im not going to hide anything.
i have nothing to hide anymore. ill say what i feel. ill write what i mean.
i wont be scared ill get bitched at, cuz i have no one to bitch
at me anymore. no one that cared befor, should care now. BECUASE
its what YOU want. deal with it. kthx i love you :]
FightToLive420: ur still gonna be my prom date right?
P A N i C 01x: haha. possibly
FightToLive420: yay
^^ lol, i can deal with this boy too :]
so this is the last time that ill hold you hand
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[Friday
December 16th At 10:49AM] |
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yay for being home at 1030.
no more school for 2 weeks. im so happy!!
last night i went to cuhs with christian.
and hung out with her, christian, tyler and matt.
it was fun. poor cuh has a broken foot :\ lol
they smoked. we watched the oc. ordered pizza. and ya.
then i came home, studied for a little. took a shower. then went to bed.
ummm. woke up at 800. skipped 5th period.
went for 6th. took my exam. played with bunnies
then walked right off school. it was exciting.
i thought it was going to get in trouble but i just
walked off like i was doing nothing wrong. hehe. fuck that school.
now im waiting for my brother to come over.
so we can go to the mall. ummm, okay bye.
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[Wednesday
December 14th At 8:11PM] |
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so i really dont have much to update on.
but i thought if update anyways.
umm. so today was 1st period exam. all i had to do
was sign my song for signlanguage. it was easy. i got an A. go me.
today was a pretty pointless day. i should have left after 1st.
but i didnt. and in 7th period, i did my exam.
which means, come friday, i dont have to go for 5th period
cuz i have no 5th period, and i have to go for 6th, but then
no 7th. awesome. then i hang out with my brother after school.
which is ever more awesome. THENNN, hopefully hanging out
with my hooker & timmy timmy tulip (ha) and ya. possibly, we'll see.
i talked to ander today. we got into another fight.
suprise suprise. but i told him me and anna would see him monday.
or tuesday. and see everyone else at the atp. tooo :]
and i think im hanging out with nick on monday befor he leaves tuesday.
coool. um daniel left today. and wont be back till monday i think.
jgfhfjdghfd gay. ummm. and ya. OC tomorrow. hopefully
with cuh, christian, tyler, matt and courtney.
EDIT:
jk courtneys in panama :[
and idk if matt is. buttt. jfvhfjg ♥
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[Tuesday
December 13th At 9:34PM] |
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the nightmare of you. |
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yea. so i say forget it, and your stupid bullshit.
and i say, im done trying. and im going to quit,
and give up, like you :] <3
im so over people. seriously. its not even funny.
fuck, idk what to write.
HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!! :[ fgjkhbkgfhjbgk
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[Monday
December 12th At 3:26PM] |
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iv had a headache since like 8:00 last night.
i got NO sleep last night becuase of christian and his fgt friend.
jlfhfjdlgfdghbjgfhjlgfk :[ but i am sorry.
umm. i missed first period becuase i woke up late.
im confused.
i used to weigh 110 i now weigh 107. gay.
its only monday. and that sucks cause this week
needs to be over LIKE NOW.
my mom is no longer going out of town. and im sad.
i want it to be new years already.
and i want it to be thursday. becuase the OC looks amazing.
and ummm, id like some panera plz ♥
ps. my lj isnt going to be friends only.
well maybe. but not right now
pps. thx for helping me out last night daniel :]
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[Sunday
December 11th At 9:55PM] |
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fuck music. |
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WTF?
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[Sunday
December 11th At 5:46PM] |
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i think im going to have
to make my LJ friends only. some people
take everything i say way to hard
and yell at me for things they have no idea
about. but i fucking hate friends only journals.
fjhfjdghfjdghfhblf WHYYYYYY :[
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[Sunday
December 11th At 2:44PM] |
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silverstein |
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so last night keli came and got me.
we went to danis. phil tim and keith were there.
we hung out till like 700 or so. then went to amandas.
a bunch of girls were there. then her parents made us dinner.
so we all ate. and then thought about what to do.
they all went to the hotel party at the beach.
but i didnt becuase i couldnt sleep out anywhere
and ya long story. soo, i went home early.
christian called. he was drunk. and i talked to his
friend alex and him for a while. then i watched mean girls
with my mom till she fell asleep. around 1130 or so christian
came and got me. we went to cuhs. cuh, tyler, and daniel were there.
we watched high tension. it was gross. but an okay movie :]
they smoked, then christian and i went to taco bell.
then came back, and watched some of pulp fiction.
but everyone was tierd and cuh and tyler fell asleep
and me and daniel and christian went into matts room
and watched jackass. then we fell asleep. and i woke up round 400
and christian took me home round 430.
when i got home, i was SOO scared. becuase my moms tv was on
and when i went in my room, my dog wasnt there.
so i was like FUCK. so i got my pj's on. and went in
her room thinking she caught me sneeking out.
but she didnt. all she said was "bonnie was barking and on your floor
so i came in and got her so she wouldnt wake u"
and im like ahh thank god. lol so then i went in my room,
and passed out. didnt wake up till 11 or something.
so i woke up, took a shower, got ready, and went to
longhorn with my mom. ate, and then shopped at the
towncenter for a little bit. and now im home. and still tierd. jfdgjkf
and i have to babysit in 3 hours. ew ♥
gkfjgkljflkjghkhg :[
ps. disregaurd that last entry bout
the std girl and the dumb boy.
the boys not dumb. and ya <3
pps. my moms not going out
of town anymore. im SO pissed. forreal :[
its a long story why shes not though.
but whatever. gfhfdlgfdhlgfd
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